It’s been difficult for me to say this, but here we go.
I’ve decided to take a big jump in being more vulnerable with myself and life. Today, I am allowing myself to let go of control. In my private moments, I’ve been feeling the quiet leadings of the Holy Spirit patiently waiting for me to listen. Saying, “Life gets more exciting when you embrace knowing less.”
You see, I LIKE control. I really love knowing exactly what could or would or might be possible before doing absolutely anything! I feared uncertainty because it demanded me to trust that everything around me would turn out the way it should. Yikes.
There’s a proverb, its actually found in Proverbs 3:5, that says to trust with all your heart in the Lord and not to lean in on your own insight or understanding – He will direct you.
Living a life built on trusting the unknown sounded a lot like nothing I was remotely interested in doing. But then I asked myself a simple question: how often was anything I had done, while fully knowing what to expect, fun or turned out to be better than what I could have imagined? I couldn’t answer, because it was easy to see; everything I did in the not knowing was a fantastic and life changing experience…
I got my first job that way and travelled all over the country.
I travelled to Maine and recorded an album.
I’ve performed for audiences large and small.
All those experiences were rooted in letting go of control – allowing myself to live in the will and love of God. So what will it be? Will you let go and join me on my rollercoaster ride?
Namarah is a Philly based singer song-writer on a mission to create intentional music and honest experiences that pierce the heart and soul with sound. Follow her journey.